Friday 27 April 2012

I Don't Wanna Stay Up All Night

Note to self: Do not go to school if you have not slept AT ALL the night before!

Today I nearly fell asleep in class. We had an assignment due at 8.30am this morning for Chemistry and if it wasn't for ANZAC day yesterday I probably wouldn't have got it done. The assignment was a titrations internal, so if you don't know what that means it was a type of experiment where I had to measure the concentration of oxygen at Hunua Falls, and to be honest I'm just glad it's over. It was probably one of the most strenuous, time consuming assignments I've had to do yet and it was only worth four flippin' credits. It was an assignment that I probably spent more time complaining about than any other, and my whole class would probably say the same. When I was in Australia in the holidays, I took my laptop and chem books over with good intentions of actually getting some work done, but obviously my lack of discipline, laziness and terrible time management got the better of me. I decided that I would just enjoy my holiday and suffer the consequences later, and suffer them I did. I spent literally ALL DAY yesterday doing it. That was starting the report and finishing it all in one day. There were times throughout the day when I cried and thought- stuff this, it's only 4 credits but then I had to tell myself to shut up and just do it. I started at 1pm (after waking up at 12pm.lol) and finished the whole report at five o'clock this morning. That's like 14 hours of stupid work! It took waaaaaay longer than I had expected. Anyway, the good thing is that I got it done and was one of the first to hand it in :) not sure if that counts for anything but yeah I'm just glad it's over. The thing I learnt today is to never pull a full on all nighter and then go to school the next/or well the same day. That was the worst idea ever. In the morning I was fine but it hit me by about 11am (luckily I had a free period) and I was so tired all day. My plan was to go to senior assembly and just 'rest my eyes' but as I was heading over to it, I was told I had a Pasikifa meeting with some uni people to talk about stuff that at that moment, I really didn't wanna hear about. My eyes wanted to close on me and my brain was not processing anything properly and I must have just looked so out of it. Got home at 5pm tonight, tried to do some work and fell asleep til about 9.30pm. Now, I'm awake and I can't sleep!! Not good. Not good at all. Worst part is now I feel sick. And tired. And I don't feel like going to school tomorrow...

Monday 2 April 2012

RUS Challenge- 31 Days in Proverbs

Hello blogging world (or facebook people if you saw this through that :P)

So, I haven't blogged in a while simply because I've been so busy with school assignments and stuff that by the time I think of this, well actually, haven't thought about blogging in ages. So yeah.

Anyway, I thought a good way to get back into blogging would be to write about my RUS challenge. On Sunday at church, Pastor Stephen set us a challenge to read just one chapter (or part of a chapter) of Proverbs for each day of April (ie. 1st of April read Proverbs 1) and the first day of May and then as we read through it to ask God for something important from that chapter/part or whatever. Then to share it with someone whether it be through Facebook, texting, blogging or simply just joting it in a diary. I think mine will be a combination of all of these.

To be honest, I've kind of lacked in the whole reading my bible and have used my assignments as an excuse to not do it or think that it's okay. I found tonight, that after putting time aside to actually read my bible (yeah, I missed the first actual day lol) that I was very wrong about my idea that God was all good with my laziness to connect with Him. So I guess I'm excited for this challenge now and ready to see what God's gonna reveal to me over this time :)

Here's what God showed me tonight (I combined both Proverbs 1 and 2 since I missed yesterday)...

Day One- Proverbs One


Proverbs 1.7

Fear of the Lord is the foundation of true knowledge,    but fools despise wisdom and discipline.


Proverbs 1.33
But all who listen to me will live in peace,
    untroubled by fear of harm.


The 'fear' which is illustrated in verse 7 isn't one from which I should be afraid but more that we should acknowledge that God is sovereign over everything and knows how everything is gonna go. To fear the Lord is to give Him the respect and honour which He deserves, to be in awe of Him and to recognise that He is Lord of all. By doing this we learn how to live in his ways.


Listening in or tuning into his voice brings peace to all of your other worldly situations, such as exams or assignments or any dramas going on that are beyond my reach.

Through reading these passages I was convicted of what I had been doing, which was pretty much nothing, and urged to listen into the voice of God more. Sometimes, although it may sound dumb, I forget that God has all the solutions to my problems and if I spend more time with Him he'll reveal these solutions to me. After all, God is the solution :)

Day Two- Proverbs Two

Proverbs 2.1-2
My child, listen to what I say,
and treasure my commands,
Tune your ears to wisdom, and concentrate on understanding.
 and concentrate on understanding.

Proverbs 2.7
He grants a treasure of common sense to the honest.
    He is a shield to those who walk with integrity.

Proverbs 2.10
For wisdom will enter your heart
And knowledge will be pleasant to your soul

These were the verses which were highlighted to me as I read through the chapter. My understanding of them is that God was showing me that if I start to become more attentive to his word, and live with integrity then His voice will become clearer. This is particularly important for me, as sometimes I neglect that fact that a little white lie here and there is fine, like saying I spent all night doing an assignment but didn't fully finish when I'd been on Facebook for some of the night. I'm gonna make a better effort from now on to stop doing this and live my life with more integrity. Let's see how it goes.

Wow. Another long post :/ Oh well, excited for what God has in store for me over the next few days, weeks, months...

:D 

Sunday 22 January 2012

Taneya :)

I'm sorry to my readers (if there's any) for my lack of blogging in the past week or so. I've been meaning to post something but I got sick and stuff so didn't wanna sit on my laptop and write something that might not interest you. That's if in fact any of my posts are interesting... (In writing that last comment I kinda have to think about the amount of time I've spent on FB and stuff but that doesn't count, right?)

Something Good About My Day: NIGHT OF EMCEES @ MNL
So yeah, tonight we had a hip hop night at church where five different acts performed their style of hip hop and what not and it was actually really cool. Hip hop is usually not my kinda thing- given I can't rap, or write or dance or whatever.haha. But it was really cool. I loved it. And the best thing about it was that my cousin, Taneya, performed a Spoken Word piece. She is awesome. It was her first time performing onstage like that and she was just amazing. Others were great too. But yeah, for me it was cool seeing her up there doing what she does best :)

Here's a video of her performance. (Sorry for the cruddy as quality- took it off my phone.) Anyway, she's great so just watch it :D

Saturday 14 January 2012

Breaking the Pattern

School is drawing closer everyday. This revelation came to me when our NCEA results were released on Thursday. I'd like to say I've been somewhat busy with other stuff that I just haven't had time to blog but seriously, in all honesty I haven't been doing much. Holidays for some people are like 'whoo I'm free, no more school for a while' and yeah I guess this was me when my holidays started... in December. But now that's it's halfway through January and school starts in like 2 and a bit weeks (I think) I'm like man I really haven't done much with these holidays. Well I have but whatever. I've been on holiday for like 2 months and it's getting pretty boring. I've been doing the whole stay up late, wake up late, eat, breathe, sleep thing over and over and now I have to try and break that terrible pattern of sleep in order to prepare for the ridiculous loss of sleep I know I'll be experiencing as soon as February 1st starts. Well maybe not exactly that date but close enough. I mean, for the past few weeks I swear I've been sleeping at like 3am onwards and actually doing nothing in those crazyshouldbesleeping hours of the day. I sit on Youtube or Facebook if anyone interesting enough to talk to is online and do nothing. Pretty much this is me rambling about my lack of discipline in telling myself when to sleep. Yeah.

On to more positive news...

SGAMD (Something Good About My Day)- This morning I woke up, well it was like 2pm so this afternoon I woke up, ate some 2minute noodles, a few hours later had dinner and now I'm blogging in my room. What's good about this you say after I just said how lame and boring it normally is. Well I'm appreciating being on holiday and even though it's nearly over I'm glad that in these 2 months of the year that students are given freedom to do nothing, I've been able to sleep to my heart's content. Wow, that's lame, huh? Whatever.

Oh and I would like to mention that I am actually happy to go back to school. Nerd, huh? The reason I think I'm saying this is because getting my results with the Merit endorsement and Merits and Excellences for English and Maths has actually got me thinking I can do it. I can actually get good marks for those things when I genuinely try. And as much as the letmesleep part of me is saying *cue long dramatic sound effects* nooooooooo, I'm actually kind of looking forward to getting back into a routine where my days aren't just spent in bed. I'm looking forward to the challenges, adventures and just all of the cool things about this year that I know lie ahead. And I know that 2 months from now, I may read this and think 'why the heck would you say that!?' but to that future me- get over yourself, enjoy your 7th form year and stop being lazy. Do that History assignment you should be doing, and the Chemistry homework you left til late at night. Stop procrastinating. Join a group. Be awesome. Have fun. And right now well I seriously hope I'm not like that again but if I am, well then yeah. Nah, I won't be.

Okay bye :)

Sunday 8 January 2012

Today Was A Good Day

I know I've already posted like just before but I wanted to write another post to stop the previous one from being super long and boring for readers. I do that a lot. Writing and saying too much. So yeah, second post of the day. Anyway what this blog is about...

Laura (my friend) is doing another blogging project similar to BEDD and is calling it SGAED (Something Good About Every Day) where for the rest of January she is going to blog about something positive in her day. Read more about it here. And while reading this on her blog I thought I could do something similar to it. But, I'm not gonna commit to everyday so I'm calling it SGAMD (Something Good About My Day) yeah both are ugly to read as it's acronym but yeah whatever.

I'm am writing this for yesterday (the 7th of Jan) since I haven't slept yet and it's still that day to me.

Today was a good day. See the thing is I've been needing new bras, and shoes, and clothes etc etc and whenever I try to look on my own I never leave with the things I needed. Other stuff yes, but not the things I need so when I got an email last night (being the 6th) from Dressmart about there sale for Puma sports shoes and Bendon bras it was exactly what I needed. Anyway, I convinced Mum to take us and that was all good and well. Until we got there. It took a while to find the right shoes at Puma because I have awkwardly big (long and wide) feet. So hard to find the right shoe to fit. In the end we found a pair that were size 11! Ridiculous right? But they were great. Nice too. They are white and pink. Best thing about it is that they were only $50 reduced from $100. Bargain hunters :) The other frustrating thing was finding a bra that fit. I hate having a large bust because it means I have to buy expensive bras. And it's just not nice. My mum tells me I should be happy with them cos some people pay to have a bigger bust. I don't know why the heck they do..? Yeah so we couldn't find any in Bendon but after a while Mum helped me find the stuff I needed in like Bras n Things or somethings like that. Yeah my Mum is amazing. I honestly don't know what I'd do without her.

New fav shop: Jeanswest. I like the dresses in there and today I brought two cardigans for $40. They are really cool. Originally they were $50 each so I saved like $60! Score. I also signed up to their customer loyalty membership thingy ma bob. Pretty much so I could get a free $10 voucher off my next purchase :)

Another thing that made my day so great was that Dad shouted us to the movies. We went and saw Tower Heist with Ben Stiller and Eddie Murphy in it. It was an awesome movie. So funny. I loved it. And being the little kid I am, while my Mum was buying the tickets i asked her for coins to play on the skill tester machines and she just happened to have spare coins. Yay! So me and my sisters went into the arcade room and spent our $2 each.lol. Mine was wasted on a game I lost at but my Dad won an Eeyore toy and gave it to me so I sat in the cinema with my popcorn and my Eeyore toy. Yeah, I'm cool.

So today was a good day. That's all.

2012!

So I haven't blogged in like a month, and the last time I did post something was to say I'd given up in the whole BEDD (Blog Every Day of December) thing. To be honest that was unrealistic for me and I should've thought that through before committing to it. Anywho, since 2012 has come around oh so quickly I thought I'd just write a blog and tell you (my maybe one/two readers) about my goals or somewhat ambitions for the year.

It seems to be that when January 1st comes around, everyone is talking about New Years Resolutions and what they are gonna do to make there life a whole lot better for the next year. Or the year that they are now in, I think. Yeah, so I didn't really wanna think of any resolutions as in the past I've failed to live up to these ridiculous goals of mine. Sometimes I must think I'm superwoman or something. Anyway, I guess over the last week or so I have been pondering over some 'resolution' like ambitions.

Last year, I went through I lot of stuff. And it taught me things about myself that I needed to learn. Cliche-ish but whatever. So I guess they are based off of these experiences I faced in 2011.

1) To appreciate myself more - Meaning to put myself first (sometimes) and treated myself with the respect/happiness/whateverelseshouldgohere I need. I'm learning to love me. I used to hate the way I looked. My hair. My arms. My legs. And the list goes on.. so yeah this made me really genuinely hate photos. I'd be all keen for a photo then would look at it and think 'ew I look so gross' etc etc. But yeah I think I'm learning to deal with these flaws and I actually like some of the photos that I used to hate now. Yep, so if you see me dissing myself, hit me okay. (Lol, not actually... or maybe haha)

2) Procrastinate less - The reason I say less is because I know I still will procrastinate against stuff but yeah it'll help me do it less. I hope. Pretty much last year (2011) I wasted a lot of time on Facebook or Youtube or just being a bum in my room when I should've been doing homework things or cleaning at home etc. and not that my grades were bad (I hope) but I know they could've been better. I'm talking about internal grades here. I only got like 6 excellence credits and the rest were merit so I was bummed. I hope my externals were good. *fingers crossed* Yep and so in procrastinating less I hope I can get an endorsement for NCEA Level 3 or at least get what I need to get to uni in 2013! (That's scary to think that uni is only pretty much a year from now!!)

3) Get closer to God - it's kinda scary to put this up here cos to be honest for the past few months I feel like I've been sort of disconnected from Him and it's because I've been putting up walls that shut Him out somewhat. It's like I know so much about His word that I could and have been faking it. It's making me cry. I really do miss being close to God. It's hard coming back to Him with everything but I know He loves me. It's funny because He gives me little hints and reminders of how much He cares and this is a whole other post so I'll stop but yeah pretty much He's the man.

4) To be a good role model - Year 13 is obviously gonna bring a lot of pressure with school and stuff but one of my other goals is to be a good role model to the younger girls at AGGS especially Rose since she's starting this year. I want to set a good example to others that will follow after me because I know that last year I probably didn't take my leadership roles too seriously and could've been better. I wanna be the kind of leader that other girls look up to but can also just relate to. I'm not the super intelligent dux-type student but I try hard in my subjects and aim for the best. That's all I can do. I also wanna make sure I stay humble. I realised that I probably talked about becoming a prefect too much last month and yeah that's not how I want this year to be. Yeah so I just wanna be a good leader. Hopefully it all goes well.

5) New Year, New Me - Mum is gonna help me re-do my room which is cool and exciting. And I now have a new desk which is gonna help the procrastinating thing I hope. Another thing she helped me with today was a de-clutter of my wardrobe. I threw a lot of clothes out and have nearly organised everything. Just need to buy a few more things. I wanna lose weight.lol. Yep last resolution, always the same. But I'm determined to at least get to a healthy weight and maybe a nice size figure for the ball.lol. That's my Mum's inspiration to me. And yeah I just wanna do it. Not just for the ball. Let's hope it works. (Gonna add this here cos I don't want six resolutions - to spend less on food and other random things and save more for Aussie in April!)

So yep, feel free to keep me accountable to these goals of mine. Hopefully they will go as planned if not better.

Yay for a new year. For 2012. Year 13. Everything.

Goodbye :)

Tuesday 13 December 2011

Time Consuming

I kinda failed at the whole BEDD (Blog Every Day of December) thing so I think I'm just gonna post when I feel the need, or am just bored. See, I think I anticipated on doing like nothing because I was on holiday but things (mostly good) have been consuming my time. That sounds bad, but yeah I haven't actually felt 'bored' per say per se because I've actually found things to do.haha.

Things 'consuming' my time lately:

1) Laura.lol. Nah, jokes. It's been good actually hanging out with people these past few weeks (mhmm actually just her haha). I like the fact that I have friends who can come to my house at 8am, while I am still asleep and then just casually walk into my room, lie down and fall asleep too. I like that we spent 4 hours! yep making those Christmas shortbread cookies for youth (which were like the first to go haha), they were yummy! Thanks Laura :) I also like that I won in Monopoly (Phase 10 shall not be mentioned.lol)

On a side note, I feel really bad for not hanging out with other people. I mean, I made plans to hang out with other people and our plans fell through because of me both times. The first was when I was supposed to go to a prizegiving but had to go into school :O I know, in the holidays! and then the other was today when I was supposed to hang out with a friend and didn't cos' I forgot I was going to Rose's prizegiving. Yeah, so I feel kind of stink since I always make plans to hang out with heaps of people and then it never happens cos' I make too many plans.lol. Maybe I should just have a 'Hang out with Olivia' day with all of those people who I wanna hang out with these holidays.haha. Sounds like party time!! Yeah right.lol. Okay, so now I really don't know where this is going and I'm just gonna stop. Yep. Okay. Thanks. And sorry if you are reading this and I have 'snobbed' you- but I really haven't. Yeah, sorry. (I like that this 'side note' is longer than what I wrote for number 1)

2) Cleaning? I would like to say cleaning but as I type this, my room is a mess, there is laundry I need to do and well yeah I think I may need to just clear out my whole room ie. de-clutter. My plan for the holidays was that I would de-clutter the mess in my room and just sort it all out into an organised looking room. To be honest, I'm not that organised, though I wish I was. So yeah, maybe that's something I'll try to tackle tomorrow... or Thursday.

Hm, I've noticed that I like to blog when I should be doing other things ie. cleaning.lol. I guess I'm just the queen of procrastination. Not a good thing. MUST GET RID OF THAT TITLE.haha.

3) Sleep/laziness.haha. Yep, I've finally caught up on all the missed sleep throughout the year (though I don't think it works that way) and yeah sleeping in til early hours of the afternoon is just great. Though I probably should add that I've become slightly addicted to Youtube-ing. Maybe not addicted- but I do like Taylor Swift and Boyce Avenue songs. Yep. They're pretty awesome and there are other random things on Youtube too. I think sometimes, I can just sit there with nothing to do and just watch random videos all day.haha.

And I suppose I should share about the whole actsofkindness thing. Yeah, that hasn't really worked much either, considering I've been pretty lazy lately. But, wait there is one thing. Well, talking again about those Christmas cookies which I blogged about here, yeah me and Laura made them for youth tonight. And it was a very time consuming task. Like 4 hours as I said before to make and decorate those amazing cookies which I have no photos of :( Yeah sorry. So that counts, right? Oh and the other day an old PI man crashed into Dad's van (not badly) and I pretty much convinced/told Dad it was alright and let the guy off. There was minimal damage to our car and I just felt sorry for the guy. He reminded me of my grandparents.lol. Yeah so that was a quick update on that one anyway.

So yeah, I'm sorry for not following the whole BEDD thing. Really though, I kinda don't think anyone cares. So now, it's time to say goodbye. Bye. Fa. Okay time to sleep (or youtube). K bye.